I know this blog post might be a little late but I thought that this is one I needed to get out of my chest.

2015 has been INSANE! Insane because it was the year I experienced my highest of highs and lowest of lows. It was an emotional roller coaster typhoon! This was also the year I learned the most.

I have learned:

1. to know when to stop fighting. Some things need to be let go of and the same applies to people. There will come a time when someone who you used to want close to you will be the last person you would want to see. This was and still is the most painful but I am looking forward to the day when it doesn't have to hurt as much,

2. to love myself and do things for me. I always try to do my best in everything I do, most especially in things I feel passionate about. I know it's weird but I used to always try to make the people around me happy. If there's anything I could do to make them happy, I would do it. It came to a point where I felt like I was being used. I didn't like it. I started to have immense feelings of hate and anger. It became uncontrollable and I was (at times I still am) constantly at war with myself. I don't think the feelings will go away any time soon but at least the emotional load is a lot lighter now.

3. to fight for things I believe in and for things I deserve or want. "No" isn't always the end of it. There are other ways to ways to achieve things. Some ways may take more time than others but if you really want something, you shouldn't let anyone stop you. You're the only person who has control over your future and happiness.

This was also the year I experienced extreme happiness. I got to meet a lot of new people who have immediately earned my love and respect. 

January 1, 2016

I spent the first day of 2016 with Gab's family. We went to their lola's farm where we ate and went swimming.